While working in my garden this summer and processing, packing, freezing, drying, canning and eating all its yummy gifts, I’ve been getting many expanding insights, they just didn’t make it into this blog.  Some nights I was up until the wee hours of the morning canning zucchini or tomato sauce, listening to inspirational channelings or thought provoking interviews.  Life happened and insights moved on, but I just didn’t feel ready to post anything in this blog until I had done some more deep internal work.  The last few months I’ve been going inward to learn.  By following my higher-self direction, messages from my teaching Angels, and support from my dear spirit team.  I want to thank my family for being themselves, my loving and supportive husband for putting up with his pondering wife, my friends Dottie and Sara Kujawa for challenging me to dig deep, rise higher and view things differently, always always with love.  Like many others on the ascending path, this summer’s Lions Gate cosmic energy waves brought numerous personal growth opportunities on mental, emotional, spiritual and multidimensional levels while my body went through challenges adjusting and recalibrating to the higher frequencies.

So I found myself faced with the need to dive deep within myself and be utterly honest.  I did it with love and patience.  I’m sure there were moments my Guides and Spirit team wished they had ear plugs.  So I stepped back from all distractions and excess outside noise and searched and reprocessed and listened and cleared.  This brave and amazing process has allowed me to grow in my own consciousness.  It has allowed me to be grounded in what is essentially the authentic me.

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Note:  This is a compilation of my insights from this summer.  Much of it builds on previous blog posts and my husband had a suggestion that I provide links back to them.  The links are in blue.  I hope it’s not too distracting, but they will go more in depth and will hopefully make things more useful.

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I’ve been writing much about forgiveness and letting go because during this shift, any heavy emotional denseness will rise to the surface.  Our reaction to it is our indicator whether there is more work to be done.  We can be puzzled why it’s there, we can feel the pain again and justify old stuff, or we can feel nothing.  Experiences really are neutral, it is our judgment of whether it was good or bad that creates the pain.  It is up to us to either bless it and let it go on its way into the light, or work through anything that needs to be worked through first.  It really is up to us.  But I will say this one thing:  Forgiving and letting go is our golden key to our own personal ascension.

For one experience, there are many truths, from many different perspectives.  When something happens, we have a choice in how to respond.  We can get frustrated and angry, we can laugh about it, we can feel empathy and compassion, or we can feel nothing and just observe.  In each one of those choices, we are choosing a particular truth.  Each truth has a different vibrational level.  When we make the choice to align ourselves with a higher vibrational truth, it creates a higher vibrational reality.

Everything in our reality has a frequency.  Everything vibrates and everything interacts with eachother on an energetic level.  Our thoughts and emotions affect everything around us.  As we raise in consciousness, we are affecting our environment more rapidly.  The closer we can manage to get to love, gratitude and acceptance, and try to hold it there, our environment will respond.  If we have a meltdown, we can bet money something will break in the near future.  In order to create a happier life, we need to start by minding the frequency we give off and the power of intention from our consciousness.

Doing deep down clearing work is not easy and it does take courage.  If we take in all the chaos, other people’s pain, stress, work and financial challenges, family issues and ascension symptoms… some of us may feel that we just don’t want to be here anymore.  We have to be careful here, we can actually manifest a quick exit.  In the throws of this kind of emotional turmoil and fed-upness, one of the millions of thoughts that flies through is wondering why we (the individual we) are here.  Bringing us to that thought of wondering is turmoil’s purpose, because if we can quiet down enough to follow it, it leads us to wonder who we truly are.  And if we can just stick with that, it can open the door to beginning to remember who we are as an individual consciousness.

If we can put aside the basket of beliefs we acquired in our indoctrination into this life, we can clear what is clouding out the reason we are here.  Society, churches, schools, parents, families, government all paint the picture for us and tell us what is reality.  We arrived into this picture.  Churches tell us who God is and where he lives and how he will judge us and what happens to us if we don’t follow.  Does anyone else remember as a child wondering if stepping on an ant would send us to hell?

There is a long line of people on the other side waiting to come in.  They can’t wait to choose a life and parents and families and environments and circumstances that will all play out to put enough pressure on them to squeeze out who they are at their very core.  We come here in the physical because we need and want (!) to feel that intense pressure to change ourselves at the core.  On the other side it is all love and light.  There is so much acceptance that it is nearly impossible to change ourselves at the core.  It happens much faster here as we gather experience to learn and grow.  We have such a unique and precious opportunity for evolution here, there are those in heaven who are jealous of US being here on Earth at this time.

If we have the chance to look back over all our lives, we can see that we have basically done it all.  We have been and done the worst along with the best.  We have murdered and stolen, we have been on the giving and the receiving end, we have been selfless, and… we have gotten ourselves into situations of which there was no way out.  Over so many lives, we have been all things.

I remember being young and telling myself not to forget something.  It was something about myself or about my true home before I came here.  To remember who I really am.  It became more difficult as I aged and as trauma began to cloud my memory.  I am able to remember a feeling though.  It is there, imprinted on my memory and it gets stronger the more I forgive, and let go, and rise above.  I am Love.

Any time we come into a physical life, and have experiences here behind the veil, we take the risk of forgetting what we came here to learn and we can sometimes get caught up in something that makes more mess in our lives.  If we can choose a higher vibrational truth, a higher vibrational reality, if we are patient and hang in there, the clouds begin to reveal themselves as the illusion they, in truth, are.

When it comes down to it, it is our own feeling about experiences that creates karma.  If we can forgive and accept ourselves first and foremost, even before forgiving others, then we can work through what there is to work through more effectively.  We are taught in churches to forgive others, but we really do need to forgive ourselves first and accept the value of the experience to clear our karma and move on to a brighter life.

It occurs to me how important it is, when we get to this level of the game, to collect up all the pieces of ourselves that we spun off in this life.  Every time we experienced a trauma, a little fragment of us went off to somewhere safe.  When we had a wish to become something else, a small part went off to explore that possibility.  When we clear our spider webs with forgiveness and get to the point of understanding and acceptance that we are pure consciousness, those pieces become magnetized back into us.  It is no longer a problem accepting that I could have the capability to be a murderer or an abuser, because I realize that I have the capability to be all things- and I have been all things.

When we realize that we came back to clear and evolve our core self, we realize that Earth and the illusion of separation is a brilliant and effective way to work with only the part of us that needs working on or that we feel needs to be worked on.  If we can get to a point that we forgive ourselves and accept ourselves wholly, then karma becomes liberated and released.  Karma released becomes light codes to level us up.

It is when we feel resistance or strong emotion to something happening in front of us that we need to accept that we have that capability within us, because we have the capability to be all things.  Then we are released from gut reacting and we become the Observer.  That is the key to mastery.  We can say, “Yes, I have the capability to be and do that within me, but do I choose to be and do that in the moment?  No.”

Then the experience is transformed to wisdom and we have again remembered who we are.