Looping

What happens to our dreams and scenarios that don’t turn out like we hoped? The themes that dominated a section of our lives only to come to an end that we didn’t see coming… a marriage, a home, a business, a job, a career, a relationship, a family or friendship… whose skeletons lurk and rattle around in our memories because we still may not know what to do with them or where to put them. Painful to think they were failures, or worse we still beat ourselves up when they have the nerve to pop up in our minds.

My current winter project is to transfer our old vhs home movies from each of our previous marriages to digital for all our kids. Being a blended family, the contrast of family dynamics is really interesting. But I’m going to use my husband, with his permission, as an example of ways we subconsciously try to loop certain themes, in an attempt to reach original expectations of what we thought was perfection.

The theme of my husband’s family was perfectionism, pushed by his own parents from a very young age. That lead to a deeply seeded anger and resentment of all the sacrifices he had to make to live up to their expectations, and his own. The lost freedom and free time is what created lack of balance. That affected his marriage and it ended (now he has that free time and balances it with a love of exercise and healthy eating.)

The saying, “God doesn’t always give us what we want, but rather what we need” comes to mind here. When we don’t meet our original goals and expectations, we may subconsciously keep trying to achieve them by re-creating scenarios in our life because we are locked into a cycle or loop and trying to fix it. The people may be different, the place, our age and circumstances, but something feels familiar and we are locked onto winning something that will finally prove to us that we are worthy, lovable, and valid. These loops are particularly apparent in families of parents with addiction and denial (but not always.)

We can be set on a loop of continually trying to prove we are worthy of being loved and valued like we should have been. We can be locked into a loop of trying to save someone. We can be locked into a loop of finding the right relationship that proves we are worthy of being loved, but none seems to be good enough. We can be locked in a loop of trying to prove we are not bad, like we were told we were by a parent. We can be locked in a loop of almost achieving success but compulsively self-sabotaging ourselves because deep down for some reason we do not feel worthy of success.

All kinds of loops. If we can wake up enough to recognize that loop, and the root message buried deep within us, we can apply the key that unlocks us from that loop and allows us to live freely. The old subconscious programming that was behind the wheel has been driving our life using a roadmap of illusions. If we are a divine aspect of God and God is within each and every cell of our bodies, including our consciousness, and God is love, then we must be love also. If all there is, is love, then everything else is illusion. That is the key that unlocks the loop. Then we can slow down our circling, become calm and begin to shine the light on our experiences, and glean the wisdom from them. This enlightenment can expand our awareness, and bring us gifts.

The new energy has been assisting us to lighten our load by bringing these long-buried things up in our lives again so that we can look at them with an elevated consciousness, to take a new look coming from compassion and forgiveness, to realize there is really no right or wrong, they were just experiences. Experiences that gave us a wealth of data for our wheelhouse so that we can grow and be in service to others because we have the wisdom of that experience. We can tell someone we went through something similar and came out okay. We can encourage them to stretch themselves past the painful blocks and get to the other side so that they can glean their own wisdom.

Dr. Wayne Traumas.jpg This energy is now asking us to dig up and pull out the deepest things inside of us so that we can forgive ourselves and others, and clear the blame, guilt and worry. If we are to claim our spiritual gifts now (channeling, healing, clairaudience, claircognizance, clairsentience), we have to finish healing ourselves before we can heal others. If we are finally ready to use the key to unlock the loops we’ve been riding, we can to ride the divine spiral upward to ascension.

Dr. Wayne, in his article, The 3 Stages of Spiritual Awakening, wrote:

“The divine part of ourselves which I have labeled thought and God is a force in the universe which we are capable of tuning in to if we believe in it and if we are willing. In the purest stage of synchronicity, we have a choice about experiencing thought in form or in pure thought. We get an intuitive sense that to act or continue acting in a certain way is creating a forthcoming event. Inner intuition tells us that we are heading toward this situation and we sense we have a choice about whether or not we need to go down this road again. In pure synchronicity, we are able to bypass the experience in form by having the thought without the need to play it out in form. It is literally getting out in front of it rather than learning from it through hindsight or in the present moment.”

Each and every one of us is complete perfection. Everything that has happened in our lives has happened perfectly. We are so much richer for the experience, and now that wisdom is in our wheelhouse and we have access to that wisdom and more. We are never alone. We have so much help from our higher selves, our Angels and Guides. All we need to do is ask for it.